It is. I know that I was...never really good enough, personally.

[Ah, but that's... He sets the cup down and promptly folds his hands in his lap like maybe that will give him some sort of center, like if he keeps his hands occupied otherwise maybe it will keep him from simply dropping whatever he's holding at the moment because this is...]

My apologies. It's not particularly fair to think of things in such a way, I'm well aware of it.